Trying So Hard

October 3, 2013. Disculpame. It's been quite a while since I've written. Like usual, but feeling moreso lately, things have been crazy. Friday I was an exhausted mess who had to teach first grade because Nati was out looking for our books (language, math, science, etc-books that haven't come yet and it's been over a month since school started). Then Lobo came to visit! We hung out and drank chocolate milk and it couldn't have been better.

Saturday he headed out in afternoon and I went to the birthday party for Alex. There was no luz, which meant no music so the kids were quite restless. But it was fun. And getting cake is always a good thing.

Sunday I planned all morning and then there was a party at a farm. It's held every year for a saint and the kids to in the morning and the adults at night. It was so awesome. I didn't drink-don't want that kind of publicity and there were TONS of people. And palo music which was so incredible. A group of guys in a circle with tall, skinny drums and what looks like a cheese grater (forgive me) is brushed hard with a "stick." It was fast and exciting. Then the bachata and merengue. And the food. Wow. Apparently there's another party just like it in the spring too. Gonna have to practice my palo dancing and get rid of this verguenza by then!

Sunday night I didn't sleep a wink. For whatever reason, I was super nervous about Monday-the day I got Diego! So I got out of bed exhausted and made it to the capital by 9. I did some Jumbo shopping for a few things (which turned into too many things) and met Ellen at the vet. Turns out Diego had ticks and now a tick-born parasite. I waited with her in the lobby while he was drying after his tick bath.  But as soon as he came out the door and I saw him for the first time, the nerves vanished instantly (cue sappy movie music). Seriously though. She and I headed out with her friend who had a truck to KM9 so I could catch my car. She was struggling. And though my nerves went away, my guilt only grew. She had had Diego since he was born. His mother died and he would have to if she hadn't adopted him... Diego had also always lived with his sister. I felt as though I was tearing a family apart. And as she handed me his leash, I ripped her heart out too..

The first carro wasn't thrilled about my dog. But I paid for the two front seats and he sat on my lap (he's a 40lb dog but thinks he's a lap dog) the whole way. He moved quite a bit but never barked, didn't throw up, and we made it without problems! In Villa I stopped in to get his antibiotic at the pharmacy and we were off in another car! These guys were way better. And got a kick out of the fact that he would sit on the floor-only my lap. 

Finally after an emotionally exhausting morning, we made it. And an hour later I had to leave him in the house for a bit. I felt awful. But I fed him and laid on the floor with him until I had to go. It was meeting time with Zach from Courts4Kids! We met at the school and Ramirez and the contractor were on time! Zach explained many things and my community leaders had many questions. This was a good thing! Zach really felt like they were taking ownership of the project (because it IS theirs) but were also open to ideas for change so we could lower the estimate. Afterwards Zach and I headed to my place and we chatted about a few more things I need to do before his next visit. There's apparently 9 applicants here in the DR right now and they can only do 5 or 6... Say some prayers please? 

Once he left, I planned for the rest of the night with Diego at my side and about 20 kids drawing and coloring. Diego was SO good with them. Of course they were all terrified of him at first because of his size and the way dogs are here but they learned quickly how chill he is and have loved up on him like crazy since.

Tuesday I did pull-outs with my fourth graders for half the day. Then I noticed my director outside cleaning and the first graders going crazy inside alone. I went and took the broom from her and spent the rest of the day cleaning and organizing the school so she could teach... Even if that wasn't what she wanted. When I got home, Diego was at the door and I can't tell you how good that felt to come home to someone. He wandered around outside while I cooked (I was originally nervous about letting him go free like that but he always comes back! Now to buy a rope and chain so he can stay outside during the days when I'm at school). I went to El Batey in the afternoon and was finally able to finish my evaluations. And it was depressing. Also the fact that two teachers had to ask the names of two of their students... "You-what's your name? Yea, you don't know how to read."  Then as I'm doing other random evaluations with kids that are coming over and bothering us, I came to find that more than those on my list can't read. So now, I have AT LEAST half of first grade, second grade, and third grade with me.

I left and planned for the rest of the night until midnight-taking a break and running at the field with Diego, of course. Who turned out to be a phenomenal running buddy and was so incredibly patient with all the kids wanting to hold his leash. But no matter who was holding him, he would only run when I ran and walk when I walked haha. 

Wednesday I did none of my pull-outs. The director asked me to do a few things which turned into, "well there's no point in even starting them now so I'll just do more to keep us organized later in the year..." Then, ready with plans for El Batey, I realized while resting in the break that I didn't have a space to work there yet. Outside was way too crazy with the breeze, children distracting us, and possibility of rain. So I decided to just go there, show them my schedule and organize the kitchen as a classroom. I saw the pastor on my way over who always makes me feel better and said I had every right to do that. And I did. I told them what I was doing rather than asked and bam. I had a space.  I left after an hour cuz there was no point in starting classes then and stopped back at the pastor's. of course we spoke of a million and one things but eventually I left to get Diego and my iPad to show him MercyMe's music. He LOVED it :) now I've gotta find a way to transfer it to his USB and print out lyrics. It would help him with his English, after all!

I left, went for another run with Diego and my kiddos and returned home to cook, clean up, and plan some more... 

Today? I awoke even more exhausted so I'm gonna skip school tomorrow. Of course, Nati wasn't there to tell her (no worries, Mavel came to teach first grade so I didn't have to) but I'm doing it anyways... I did pull-outs with my fourth graders until recess. During recess, I was inside the school with Ramona and Manuela (the seventh grader that we're helping together). There was screaming in another room. I walk in to Pamela and Samuel tearing each other apart and Samuel was sobbing. i broke it up and rocked Samuel until he calmed down. I went back to working with them when more yelling out back was heard. I went and broke another fight with two older boys. And got hit in the face in the process. Then the kids were climbing our cage that holds the water jugs. Then another fight. It was absolute chaos. Then a group of first graders ran through a pack and Meliana got kicked in the knee where she already had a decent cut. Screaming bloody murder I took her inside. And as I walked in, Manuela was crying. Ramona had walked away to check on something so Manuela was standing by the door waiting. Another kid came running through and slammed the door shut on her hand leaving three good sized blood clots on her knuckles. I saw the other teachers and yelled, "This is absolutely crazy! And this cannot happen anymore! During recess, all of the kids need to be outside and one teacher needs to be in front, one on the side, one in back, and one inside. Enough!" I was livid. Ramona agreed and the others said nothing.

After, my plan was to continue. But of course, that was my plan. A teacher's husband's back was apparently so bad he could barely walk so she had to take him to the hospital. He drove to the school to pick her up... So I went to third grade. I literally said to them, "Today, you will work. And work hard. And in silence. I have no patience. I'm angry and sad. I want silence. Now." With limited patience, I had to remind them a few times but we survived. And at the end, I read them a story and they were completely silent, enthralled, predicting the next page, and when the bell rang, I went to close the book and they yelled at me to finish. Haha

I left with Ramona to head to El Batey to talk with Manuela's parents. We wanted to make sure they knew what happened and apologize because as educators, we are responsible for the safety of their children. It went well, the mother wasn't upset, and she understood.

By the time I got home, I had 45 minutes to cook, let Diego out (poor thing :( ) and head back to El Batey. I got there and started my classes. They were a bit crazy and I've certainly got to make some sort of behavior chart unlike on my side. around 3:30, Luisa passed me her phone and said it was Ramona. I answered, and she told me she was leaving and not coming back. That she was sorry because she cared for me and loved me but she just couldn't do it anymore. I wanted to leave so bad to see her... But she was gone and I had classes. And by 4, the rains threatened. So they let the kids go. Lord, you did it again. I booked it despite every person yelling for me not to get wet. I had to see Natividad and find out what happened. I made it soaking wet (had to fight with a teacher telling her that me coming and getting soaked was more important than staying dry back at the other school), she explained, and then the community came. Seven in total; screaming, talking over each other, getting angry, calming down, attacking Natividad, some defending, arguing about things that didn't matter, things that weren't the issue, etc. It was absolutely insane. And after getting sick of them attacking Natividad about all the things she HAS to do, I yelled, "ENOUGH. If you're going to say these things to her, you have to say the same to Ramona!" They agreed, and want to have a meeting with Natividad and Ramona... Soon. Like Monday when I'm supposed to be in the capital all week. I also yelled again when they got off topic and said "BUT THIS ISN'T EVEN THE ISSUE!" Kenia finally got them all to shut up, pray, and leave. It was 6:30. School lets out at 5 and I had made it there dripping wet at 4:30. 

So I told Natividad I would teach 4th grade until she needed me to. So much for not going to the school tomorrow. My pull-outs have come to a halt. And Natividad has threatened to leave as well. She can't work in this atmosphere. And I don't blame her.

And through this mess I'm trying so hard to stay positive. So here's my list.

What I have to be grateful for:

Running.

Coffee.

Yucca and salami.

My house. 

Luz.

Cooler nights.

Diego.

My kids even if they do just love me cuz I give them time to color and cut and paste and draw.

Courts4Kids and the possibility in my community.

My director, Ramirez, and the contractor who were all super open to ideas but also took ownership of the project.

My Peace Corps friends.

My pastor.

I have "my own" space in El Batey now to teach-the kitchen.

The rain.

Tostones.

Family and friends back home.

Books.

Yea...Buenas noches.

Take Care of Her From Above

September 25, 2013. 

Started pull-outs.

Evaluations in El Batey-disaster. The teacher didnt even know the name of one of her students.

Ran. With 30 kids. Raced. Walked. Did cartwheels. Did two push-ups as a joke and turned around to see about 30 kids doing them with me hahahaha SO GOOD.

These were my notes from yesterday. I didn't have time to complete them and now today, the 26th, I've got other things occupying my mind. But today my pull-outs went well. We followed through with an idea of mine to have a monthly meeting where the teachers can express what went well this month and what we can work on for next month. Then we picked one "Outstanding Student" from each grade and I'm making certificates and a mural to post their pictures to help with motivation and positivity. The teachers were honest and we've got a few things to work on for October so I'm excited. Things didn't work out in El Batey today (figures) but it's a work in progress-it'll get better. I then went running again (despite being exhausted and sore) with more little ones and it was a blast.

But when I arrived home, there were a ton of people at and around my neighbor's house. Come to find out, a man that lived down my street and around the corner was killed today. One story is that he was crossing the Duarte (the highway I cross to get to El Batey) and a tire flew off a truck and killed him. Another story is that it wasn't the tire, but they won't say what they think it was. He left behind a three year old little girl who just kept saying that her daddy was on his way home with soda and crackers like always... From 8 until 9:30pm, the people were waiting for the body to come; there had to have been at least 100 people, no exaggeration. They hung a canopy outside the house which will be taken down after nine days. When the truck arrived, they left the body and sped off. A woman began screaming. Sobbing on and off from the house. The people continued to arrive to just stand around and watch or listen. I pulled out my chairs because it was right near my house and many came to stand on my porch. The woman left the house screaming to the little three year old, "AY DIOS MIO, SE MURIÓ TU PAPI" (oh my god, your father died) over and over and over again... 101 people asked if I was scared and if I wanted someone to sleep here with me tonight. 

I can't describe how I'm feeling... I just keep thinking about that little girl who once had a father who  bought her a soda and crackers every day on his way home from work and slept with her every night will now have a completely different life and she won't understand why. And she will be fatherless like so many children here. And I keep thinking about the highway. Whether it was the tire or not, he was killed there, and we have little ones crossing that highway everyday, twice a day, for school. And how the people just watch it all happen here. And how I got sucked into it too. I don't know what to think or feel really... I just hope that man takes care of his girl from above.

It's now 11:30 and because I was unable to hide my yawns, the people on my porch left. I brought all my chairs in and am in bed but it's quite loud outside still. There's quite a few drunk people. Hopefully there will be no problems during this sleepless night. And hopefully the little one can sleep in blissful ignorance for now...

Buenas noches.

Update: Commence singing, chanting, and clapping at 12:15am.

Making a Day Off Count

September 24, 2013. Today was a day off! And I made it count in many ways. First, this morning in my bed :) I awoke around 7:30am to my kiddos playing in the field outside my house but didn't get out of bed until 9:30am haha. I slowly made breakfast, washed my dishes, got dressed and eventually opened my door at 10:30. To which I heard comments all day like, "Man, Julie, you sleep a lot!" Haha I explained that I was awake early, not sleeping, and was just doing things. I'm just a weird American who doesn't open her door immediately upon arising from the bed.

They started drawing and I mapped out my schedule (eliminating the first graders...) and made plans for my first day of pull-outs--tomorrow! At noon, I kicked them out so I could cook and not feel embarrassed. Another lousy meal made, I ate and watched the rest of Bridesmaids on "my" couch. Hung out with some more munchkins until 2:30 and went to go see Dulce! It had been way too long. Buuuut she was sleeping lol. I let her be, bought some sugar, made coffee, and ate more sugar cane, sharing it with six others. At 4, I checked with Linda who said she was gonna run with me today, "Sí Dios quiere."  So I tried to see Dulce again until 6 and was successful! She was there! And Moreno too. She was cooking (and of course fed me too) and Moreno and I talked A TON on the porch together. He said he's been wanting to visit me but gets home so tired (he seriously doesn't have a single day off-even today). It felt so great to be able to do that and Lordy do I miss them. I made sure I told them that too lol. He told me to make sure I always had a few minutes if I ever needed to call them, even if that was in the middle of the night. They're always there for me :). Ugh. Love.

And another sugar cane in hand, I headed home to change.

Me (to Linda at her house down the road as I'm opening my door): "LINDA!! VAMOS!!"

Linda: "It's almost 7!"

Me (looking at my phone, knowing it wasn't): "It's 6! VAMOS!"

Linda: "I'm cooking dinner!"

Me: "But I said 6 and you said yes!"

Linda: "Tomorrow! Si Dios quiere!"

Me (to myself): sigh... "I know what that means."

So little Pamela and I headed down by ourselves. And it ended up being AWESOME. She ran with me and got tired after one lap. So we'd walk, run back, walk, run back, etc. Slowly more and more kids showed up and would walk, we'd race back, walk, race back. They would cheat and start running early. Or not walk as far as I would before turning around haha. It was so funny. Then about 15 more showed up and a game of tag was started. Which turned into freeze tag. And then the tag where when you tag someone, they tag people too and it adds up. SO FUN. and exhausting. I was sweating so much and I finally wasn't embarrassed despite all the comments! Cuz Lord knows, I can't do anything about it or hide it so whatever! Lol finally I got too tired, bought yucca and avocado and water and headed home with Pamela. On the walk back, Antonio handed me something wrapped in a napkin. It was a huge pork rind, Dad!! And legit! Not like the airy stuff we would buy at the stores! It was so good! You better come visit so you can have some-I'll make sure they make it when you're here :D Though you'll never wanna go back to the processed stuff ;) I shared it with two little ones and made it back to no luz. Damn. But I showered, made yucca, and hung out in my dark house until 10pm. Now I guess it's time for bed. A good day off indeed. Tomorrow, I promised them more tag and I can't wait! I'll probably need it after working in both schools :P

Buenas noches!

It Was Time to Run

September 23, 2013. Today I evaluated a few first graders. Then got thrown into teaching first grade for an hour. And was hit in the ass by a five year old girl. Go me. When class let out, Ramona and I tried to create a better intervention plan with Mavel and I. It was unsuccessful. Here is my letter to my boss to gather her opinion:

"In doing my evaluations for the entire school (1st-4th), my conclusions were grim (but that's why we're here!). The majority of my second and third graders know one, maybe two syllables, first grade consists of a few who got held back and many who didn't come last year for preschool. And I've got 4 in fourth grade who need reinforcement terribly. In my ideal situation, I would have two groups in each grade from 1st-3rd and have some time to work with the 4 kiddos in fourth grade individually (because their needs are completely different). But I simply don't have the time.

Now Mavel is the teacher that lives in my community and is being sent by AMCHAM to work in the school-one hour each grade in literacy and math. There is this game that they are focusing on (by Pro-Leader) and she will start after the talleres in the capital (Francisca and I are going as well but a different week). At first, Natividad had a plan to put Mavel in each grade for an hour so that the teacher could leave for that hour. I spoke with her about the idea of "co-teaching and co-planning" and how that would benefit the students (especially in first grade with the many many different levels that exist). She agreed that it would bea better idea to have the teachers stay in the classroom so more individual support could be provided. Okay, win 1.

Ramona and I then talked about how much work I have with little time. And how Mavel and I are here together to provide support for nearly the same thing. Why should we work completely parallel from each other and not support each other as well? To make our lives easier AND benefit the little ones more too?  When Juana (AMCHAM) came to this school before I arrived, she asked Ramona what the school needed. And Ramona said, reinforcement in first grade; that is where the problem lies. So as she and I talked, we thought, why not put Mavel in first grade the majority of the time? For example, all day Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday; and Thursday and Friday she could work in the rest, one hour each grade. This would then alleviate the intense needs in first grade and will provide the support and change needed for future generations (sustainability!). I could then focus solely on second, third, and fourth grade to help those that are behind and would stay behind without extra help. (I hope this is making sense-There's a lot of components here). 

So we talked with Natividad. And it didn't go over well. She's stuck on Mavel being in all grades, one hour each. She said it's the program that AMCHAM sent her for and that's that. But I don't understand that. Every school has it's specific needs, it's varying challenges. Why would there be only one program that isn't flexible to the necessities of the school? I tried to teach the munchkins in first grade. Natividad is doing it now and even she is struggling. It's so hard when there are those that are older because they were held back. Those that have never been to school before and can't hold their pencil correctly. And those in the middle who are basically on track. Mavel and I are resources to combat all of this but we need an intervention plan. And the one set FOR us and not WITH us doesn't seem to fit. 

Let me know if this all makes sense (well, my explanation of the situation, anyways haha) and what you think? I'm just at a loss and agree with what Ramona is saying. But we've hit a wall with Natividad and it's frustrating because we have the support!  Just not the most effective plan (in my opinion)."

Within minutes Ann responded and says she agrees with my perspective but also understands that Natividad's hands may be tied by AMCHAM. But, she said she'd be willing to message Juana and talk with her about the situation if I get permission from Natividad. So since we don't have school Tuesday, I'll ask Wednesday.

I went home and ate the rest of the crappy lunch I had made yesterday while watching Bridesmaids :) Afterwards, I went to the school to ask the eighth graders if they were serious about learning and that I was sorry I didn't make it clear enough that they needed to be ON TIME ahead of time. But they still want it! :) I returned home and tried to nap. I was unsuccessful with the thousands of things running through my head so I got up and played cards with a few munchkins. 

It wasn't a horrible day, just slow moving and that's somehow exhausting. I was feeling defeated but at 6pm, I went abajo to run with Mirian (the girl I met yesterday) but she wasn't there. And there were guys playing baseball. But! I ran anyways. A few kids would join me, quit, and join me again later. We raced. They quit again. I kept going haha. I then went to buy yucca but there was none. So cold water bottle in hand (seriously, I cannot tell you how good cold water is when I finally get it. I can't drink it fast enough and then I get a headache...), I ran home and did some core stuff with Pamela watching from the spare bed. It felt so good to run again. Despite the comments, the reality of being out of shape, and more comments ("Oh well at least I know you'll last in bed with me!" Yup.), I was flying high. The day was a rough one but man, I ran and my worries and doubts just passed through my pores with the sweat (ew). 

Pamela and I then sat outside and ate chinas together. I showered and started making dinner when BAM, commence group of kiddos drawing, painting, cutting, gluing, and being super creative. I've noticed that as more time goes by, they have branched from copying each others drawings to doing other original things. Again, it was chaotic but I just stood at my counter drinking my hot chocolate and grinned from ear to ear. My heart swelled and I loved every minute of it. And didn't kick them out until 8:45pm this time! Also got a huge sugar cane brought and munched on that before turning in :D Hopefully cuz it's natural sugar, it won't kill my teeth? 

Buenas noches!

Start With Pancakes and End Up On a Baseball Team!

September 22, 2013. So yesterday I said egg, salami, and avocado were a good way to start a day? Try hot chocolate, pancakes with a touch of vanilla, and Matilda on my iPad. Trumped it :D I then gave myself until 9am before opening my front door. And as soon as I did, I had a few girls and Linda come by. And then Charo who asked for coffee immediately lol.

But Linda and Charo soon left so I started hand washing my laundry. And what a process that was! But I did it and feel pretty damn proud. My burn on my arm started bleeding like crazy from the detergent though so I wrapped it up and carried on. I missed Dulce's washing machine quite a bit but more for the dryer than anything else. It wouldn't dry my clothes all the way but within the hour in the sun, everything was done. Now, it takes a few hours to dry. Not terrible, just missed being spoiled :P

Afterwards, I started planning for my English class (finally!). Around 1:30pm I finished, kicked the artists out of my house so I could cook, and made a pretty shitty lunch. But still edible. At 2, the girls returned and we played Dominoes and cards until 3. Class was scheduled for 2 and it wasn't until 3 that a group showed up. And another at 3:05. I could have given the class but I needed them to understand. So I asked what happened and why they were an hour late. "What time is it?" They asked. I said it was 3 and that class was at 2. I told them I was sorry but I had plans at 3 and couldn't give class then. And that when I say a time, I mean that time exactly because my schedule is packed and don't have time to waste. I felt super guilty but I need them to learn... They can't be Dominican with me lol Hopefully this didn't scare them away but rather makes them come on time next week...

I showered (it was so freaking hot) and headed to see Dulce. She wasn't there so I went to talk with Ramirez. Zach isn't coming until next Monday because he'll be in the south visiting five other volunteers applying for the Courts4Kids project. Apparently there's 8/9 applicants right now and they can only do 5/6 each cycle... I'm nervous because I really want ours to happen this cycle :/ Anyways, I needed to tell Ramirez about the postponement of the meeting but he wasn't there either. 

I almost turned to go home but thought I'd stop by and see Manuela. I chatted with her and her daughter for almost 2 hours. And found out there's no school Tuesday. Woo! There was a softball game going on with the women in my community and a women's team from KM56 so I went to watch.  I sat with Linda and met a girl my age who wants private English classes. I agreed to do it because she seems very committed and already knows quite a bit. We were talking about the game and exercising and I found out she runs every day during the week at 6pm and does core workouts. I got super excited and asked her if I could join. She said yes! WIN. 

Linda then turns to me and goes, "Julie, you're going to play ball with us." And within seconds, the coach came over and welcomed me to the team! He wants to put a new team together with women that are a bit more serious and Linda and I are going to join! I have no idea if I have the time but I'm so pumped!! 

My community won the game (:D) and Linda and I sat at a colmado for a while. We then headed back, she cooked me dinner, and brought it to me while I FaceTimed with my family :) Had a bunch of kids watching and there was lots of going back and forth between Spanish with them and English with my family haha. But the vocal switch of languages has become easier and faster and that was fun to realize. I felt terrible for my family cuz it's chaotic but they were troopers :D 

And now I need to plan for tomorrow. And shower. And go to bed. And it's already 11pm. Whoops! Haha

Buenas noches!

Clean, Plan, Organize, and Remain Calm

September 21, 2013.  I woke around 7:30am and made an egg, salami, and avocado sandwich. Oh yea. That's how you start a day. I went to work pretty quickly cleaning my house. Aaaand changed the  floor bucket like 20 times-thank goodness we had water! But it was gross. And the floor really didn't look better... But seeing the water and how brown it was means I did something, right? 

A few girls stooped by and one tried to take the mop from me to "help" twice. That poor girl almost got her hands bitten off ;). It just felt so damn good to clean, I couldn't let her do it. hahaha I told her she was so sweet for wanting to help but I really really wanted to do it myself :P I then had some extra time so we organized my "Sala de Arte" haha I think that's a better name.

At 10:30, I showered and headed out to the capital. In the guagua I got in, the chofer got snippy with me cuz I thought it was $50RD but it was $60RD. He was nasty and yelled at me for giving him 50 and demanded the rest. I just laughed at him, told him it was no problem, and handed him ten more pesos. The two guys in the back laughed with me and we chatted the entire way into the capital. Still love being able to say I did that. And I hope that feeling of accomplishment never goes away... Lol

At the office, Cory and Laila and I planned for our Classroom Management talk for our Escojo Enseñar Conference in October. It should be a good two hour session :).  But I am nervous I won't get anyone from my school to come... We'll see. 

Afterwards, I headed to Ikea with Cory to get a spatula and containers for my food so I can take it all out of my fridge lol. I found adorable colorful ones, a reusable bag with a zipper, other utensils, and super cheap art to put on my living room/kitchen walls. #Ikeatherapy.

By the time I got home it was dark so I shut my door (the guilt is getting to me though so tomorrow I'm gonna have to leave it open all day :P). I made ITALIAN-STYLE pasta and it made me so happy. It wasn't the same but it reminded me a bit of home :). 

Then....I was totally going to plan for my English class tomorrow at 2pm (expecting lots of eighth graders to show up and others...) but motivation and drive was lacking big time...

So instead I did this:

...Cuz apparently I had motivation to organize some more instead? Before, all that beautiful art that was made for me was hung on the walls with tape. And the next morning, it was all on the floor. Guess wood and tape aren't best friends. So string and clothes pins it was! But now I'm out of clothes pins for when more art is made... Looks like a new capital list has already started and I just got back from there! Haha

Now it's 10:30pm and I've done no planning for class tomorrow... And I was planning on doing laundry in the morning (gonna try and work up the courage and be Dominican so I can ask Linda to borrow her washing machine. I'm just not ready to hand wash hahaha). It's all good. It'll work out like it usually does.

Buenas noches.

Inside and Outside Their Education

September 20, 2013. The difference between El Puerto as a private school and my schools? Indescribable. No, not perfect, but I'm still quite... In shock. 

So the director came to get me in the morning but found out last minute that he had a taller to go to. He left me at the school and headed out. The director then took me on a tour. The classrooms were huge. Beautiful murals were painted on the walls outside. There was a swing set. Basketball nets. A kitchen. Green grass and space to run. Every time we entered a classroom and said "Buenos Dias" the kids stood up and said it back. When she said "You can sit now," they said "Gracias" and sat down. I'm not exaggerating when I said I got goosebumps all over my body the first time it happened. Two of the teachers that work in my school in the afternoon, work there in El Puerto in the mornings. So I visited each one for a bit. Of course I was asked to do Alele with the kids (which they loved). I walked around and helped the second graders with their work. They were beyond precious. In fourth, she left me with them for about a half hour (not surprised...). Thankfully they were more mature and I did four different dinámicas/games and they loved it. And responded to all my positive classroom management strategies. Again, not perfect, but the difference made it feel perfect. During recess I didn't witness one fight. The kids sat, ate, swing, ran, and played. Later, after recess one fight broke out. But one fight with at least 3X the number of kids? Ha. Ha. Ha...

Afterwards, I headed to Yokasta's house to eat so we could head to 59 together. I met her mother and at a wonderful meal. We left and I parted ways at the colmado so I could grab a few things and go home. I was not going to the school for the afternoon and I was pumped about it. Of course every kid I walked by was like, "Julie! You weren't in school today!" Haha nope! When I got back to my house I made coffee cuz I was crashing hard and I had promised the pastor I'd stop by in the afternoon. I was struggling to find the motivation but I knew I had to go. Just as I showered and changed, however, pitter...patter...pitter...SHEW! Commence downpour and serious thunder and lightning for the next two hours. YES. I could barely think straight with how loud the rain was on my zinc roof but oh lord was it perfection. After almost falling on my ass in the kitchen, I discovered where my roof leaks and also all over my Sala de Tarea. Lame.

But I left a bucket under the spot in the kitchen and answered the call of my bed. Sadly (and surprisingly) I couldn't actually sleep but simply lying there was enough. Around 5:30, I headed out to see the pastor like I promised. As per usual, we talked about nearly everything under the sun (or clouds...). But the one part that got me was when we talked about the parenting issues here in the DR. It started out with the story from El Batey of the fractured skull (yea, found that out) from a stick because a pencil was stoken. I spoke of the way parenting here is and how the kids are treated at home and in the schools. And how the violence between the children (the way they ALWAYS fight one another as a first reaction to conflict-like having their pencil stolen) makes sense. They are raised by being beaten when they do something wrong. And in most cases are hit in the schools too. How could they possibly know a better way to resolve conflicts when this is their life from birth? I was nearly in tears because I would love more than anything to also work in this area here but as a whole culture, this has existed for generations and is country-wide. That's quite a task to want to tackle. But he saw it all; my perspective and my tears and has just as much passion as I do. There's a program in the Peace Corps that touches on this (and many other aspects of families-self-esteem, health, communication, discipline, etc) and I've got the manual. Our next visit will consist of going through the manual and developing a plan to see if this would be a possibility in my two communities-because there has to be interest if there's going to be change. I'm definitely sending a thousand prayers up with this one because wow, it's hit me harder than I could have imagined. These kids own my heart and this could be one step to bettering their lives outside and inside of their education.

The rains had returned while we spoke and by the time they stopped, it was dark. But I walked home convincing myself that I was not afraid despite the slight increase heartbeat trying to tell me otherwise. I made it, shut my door, made dinner, and now it's time to sleep. Tomorrow it's capital time. Buenas noches.